overload.

i think i'm heading for information overload. the things i have to know. the things i wish i did not have to know, yet can't help but take in because they're all spelled out for me to know. the words i need to remember and the words i'd rather forget. the answers to questions i know i'd be asked, the answers to questions i didn't know i'd be asked. the anticipations. the surprises. the facts. the details. what i have to deal with. what i wish i didn't have to deal with.

it's only the second day of the week and i sometimes feel i've been served more than i can chew. and while i wish i could mince words, chop thoughts, and grill, baste and saute people, i can't because i've been feeling an inexplicable stillness and silence within. there's no rollercoaster of emotions, no mishmash of nerves and no jumbled entrails and feelings. i guess it only means there's still nothing to worry about. yet.

or it must be the cold. it's been rainy and gloomy and chilly these past days, i must have been numbed. there is nothing else i want than to curl up in bed and snuggle under the thick, warm covers. and overload on sleep and forget about everything else for a while - thoughts, people, events, time, days.

if only i wasn't so overloaded on caffeine.

rock 2009.

i've never been good with new year's resolutions. i'd always put off trying to stop procrastinating. i couldn't stay away from coffee. i'd hold on to things, feelings, memories when i was supposed to move on. i'd pile on old baggage that got heavier to carry. at the end of every year, i'd be miserable because i wasn't close to keeping every resolution.

so i stopped making them because it didn't make any sense to welcome a new year with the same old resolutions. i resolved only to do one thing each year.

live life.

those two words sound better than a litany of worn out resolutions. and they always bring something new and exciting each year - the ups and downs, the setbacks and success, the fun and the flops, the mistakes and the lessons, the wonderful and the worst - making me stronger/wiser/bolder/saner/crazier/nicer/happier/more grateful.

i made this collage in my organizer last year. rock 2008. it reminded me to make 2008 count. i pasted cut-out words and phrases i liked, adding some more as the year went on. i didn't think of them as resolutions, more like different ways for me to rock the next 12 months.

travel.
be more active.
indulge in your inner child.
read.
no time? make some.
stop cramming.
love.
new tunes.
watch gigs.
explore.
pick up a new skill or craft.
eat healthy.
dream.
kick start some change.
happy days.
live life.

i like how they made my 2008 rock, i'm keeping them for my new organizer. and of course, add some more because now, it's time to rock 2009.

yule love it!

christmas is love!

from the nine-day pre-christmas novena masses which i finally completed to a whole day's christmas shopping for presents to preparations for noche buena to welcoming relatives who spend christmas with us to squeezing in and gathering together around the table for christmas dinner to giving gifts - there's a spirit of joy, an air of happiness, the warmth of love and complete gratitude during this special birthday that brings together special people.

christmas lights twinkle brightly. fireworks explode happily. carollers sing with glee.

and for this special moment of the year, everyone sends their prayers, their warm christmas wishes, their heart-felt greetings. forget about commercialism or how much globe or smart is earning with about 6,000 text messages per second. the thought that you hear from people you haven't kept in touch with for so long is heart-warming.

then the best realization that Jesus is born in each of our hearts and accepting and welcoming Him with the gift of our own selves - humbled by His greatness and greater love.

from my family to yours...

omg. it's my first ever award.

forget oscar, golden globe, ama, vma, tony, teen choice, nobel, pulitzer, or even the scream awards. this is way better.

the happy blogging award!


a tag-award from best bud on-and-off cyberspace, psychicnerd.

four days into a new blog, and i have an award already. that's happy blogging indeed!

passing on this award to all happy bloggers.

love in the time of xocolatl.

chocolate that is. more specifically, chocolate cakes. other than the serotonin and the phenylethylamine and what other happiness-inducing substances there are in chocolate, there's something about dark chocolate cakes that instantly lights me up.

it's always crave at first sight. or at first read from the menu. the desire increasing at the sight of chocolate syrup toppings, chocolate shavings, marshmallows, cherries, nuts, whipped cream, icing and imagining how it would linger in your mouth. yum. it pierces the taste buds like cupid's arrow shafts digging deep into your heart. you just have to have a slice.

but i barely finish a slice all by myself. most often, i share a slice with a friend or a loved one.

that's why chocolate cakes are love. while you can't get enough of a scrumptious slice, it's best when shared - over coffee, over laughter, over long talks, over silly chats - with well, people you love and love to be with. that'll leave you craving for more chocolate, but i guess that's part of its irresistible charm.

and you look forward to your next chocolate cake slice. and who you could share it with. but of course, if you've fallen in love with chocolate cake so much as to learn how to make it, like i have, baking chocolate cakes is a greater love.

and way sweeter.

photo-tagged by betz.

a.k.a. the psychicnerd.

"The rules are simple. Use Google Image to search the answers to the questions below. Then you must choose a picture in the first page of the results and post it as your answer. After that tag 7 people."

1. the age of my next birthday.


2. a place i'd like to travel to.


3. a favorite place.



4. a favorite thing.



5. a favorite food.



6. a favorite color.



7. the city i live in.


8. the city i was born in.



9. a nickname i had.


10. college major(s).


11. name of first (and only) lover.

12. a bad habit.



13. a hobby.


14. current wish list (max. 3 items).

tagging: anyone!

meanwhile, multiply must be mad.

it's gone loco on me. i tried posting an entry and all i got was this error message prompting me to return to my home page after clicking on publish. but when i checked my media locker, my entry was there.

i tried deleting it instead, but it won't disappear.

multiply glitch or multiply bitchin' on me?